I had a second go at promoting at Kebab Masters and it was nowhere near like the first time. A few people actually took flyers this time (before no-one did) - it seemed my mind was blocking people much less. After I had finished I noticed some kind of imagined argument coming up. I practiced being grateful for that mind. I had read this in a poem, in the very last line:
It felt unusual at first, until I finally got it. By inclining my mind in that way, to actually be grateful for a negative mind, I gained deep insight into that mind. It was quite a profound experience - my resentment turned to interest. And the mind wasn't beaten. It was obliterated. This was on Monday 29 May and as at Friday, I am still feeling the change continuing to evolve. Last night I had a lucid dream where I reflected on a traumatic lucid dream from 1996 - by re-experiencing something similar - and discarded it while still dreaming.
The ability to overcome deep negative minds in this way is only possible when you have a method to do so. Believe me, I had deliberately been reflecting on and attempting to get rid of this dream from 1996, similar dreams and their resulting triggered anxiety disorder for 20 years. With this meditation I have been making solid progress and continue to do so. Give it a go, give it time, give it grateful sincerity and you can't lose! 😃 After all, what is life all about if you can't enjoy it?
This is great Chris. You ar being grateful for a negative mind. This is huge progress. I'm only now starting to do this 👍
I love this poem! Thank you for your insight :)